It's official. I'm back on campus, a full time student putting in a part-time effort... at least for the moment. I hate myself for that. I think about my teaching experiences, and how annoyed and upset I got when facing students who obviously weren't interested. At the moment, I am interested in my organ and piano lessons... come tomorrow I'll be interested in choir. Other than that... well... let's just say I need some motivation. Anyone willing to bribe me? I didn't think so. The motivation will appear... right? Let's hope so. Ah well... the odds of me failing any of those classes are slim.
Christmas break was interesting. I don't know who decided to give us 3 weeks off, but I'd really rather have a longer summer. I was getting pretty bored towards the end. But it was really nice to get all the SD out of my system... I think it made for a smoother transition. I've been pretty grumpy upon return though -- the dorm room is small... so much smaller than my room in Watertown... and the food is bad. There is only one thing keeping me from wishing for a fast-forward button -- Children's Theater. And I don't even have the job yet. But one of my very good friends is trying out for director and I just know that he and I would put on the most amazing show ever. Hopefully the board will feel the same way.
I have a simple goal for the rest of the year -- do what makes me happy. Starting in August, or a little before that, I'm going to start being a real adult. Thus, I am going to live up this lack of responsibilities thing for all it's worth. And if that means going to sleep at crazy times and not reading assignments, so be it. As long as I graduate, I don't care. Bad, huh? I think the issue lies in that I have now been teaching not once, but twice, and both times proved that I am capable. I just want to do it. I want to be done. Not that my profs don't have useful things to teach me, and not that there isn't more that I can learn, but just not at the moment. However, I don't have that option, and thus must keep going. It will be ok. On the brighter side, I actually know people in all my classes. I feel pretty old in geometry, but one of my favorite people is in that class, along with 2 other good friends, so I'll survive.
Random thoughts of the day... kids are amazing. Being missed, being liked... it's all super. I wish I could go back to them. Bridesmaid dress shape, here I come. Football naps are the best kind, especially when you wake up just in time for the 4th quarter. I did not suffer from senior slide in high school and am now making up for it. My parents are amazing. Should I go to Japan? Nah... I didn't think so either. You don't really know which friends you're going to stay close with... you just have to grab on to the ones that stick and not let go.
