the princess talks...

So... Easter is all done. I think I spent more time at church than at home. I got a job, bought a friend her first drink, and was reminded why my family is so amazing and why I am as weird as I am. This week has been a bit odd - Tuesday clinical was normal I guess. I'm glad I don't have many weeks left - but my headache when I returned to campus wasn't as bad as usual. Tuesday night was a night at the bar and casino as we were sure Arbor Day was Wednesday. (there seriously isn't much to do in small town MN) Arbor Day was indeed on Wednesday, and my group didn't do much, so I left them and rode around on a cool janitor's cart all day. I scheduled my classes in the afternoon with no problem at all, as I was 63 out of the whole school - much to the dismay of many "real" seniors that I got to schedule before... oh well. Today I had one class and choir. Tomorrow will be equally class-free... only three classes.

Boy situation: new boy might be "doing something" with another girl and thus not as free or as interested as I originally thought. For once I did the rational thing - I made a call to a friend to figure it out and stopped thinking about it. What else can I do. I also miss perfect boy. I think I go through phases or something where I just need to have him. Or maybe it was that he was in my arbor day group yesterday like he has been every year here. Only this year he said I could leave and didn't come with me.

Rooming situation: Who knows?!? VP has been randomly letting people live off campus now... not sure what's up with that. But he hasn't been telling us about it, and we need people to live with. Saturday I might be going to see a place that could be a possibility... I hope it's nice. It has a washer and dryer - that would be a definite plus.

I remember writing, either online or in my "real" journal about how things couldn't get any worse. Well, I guess they haven't gotten substantially worse, but apart from last summer, I can't remember being really happy at any point since, well, probably musical. Everything seems to have an underlying bad mood of "oh yeah, perfect boy is no longer talking to you" or "this guy didn't like you" or "all your friends are living on campus and you're not". The latest is that VP said we could ask two more people to move in with us, as we got screwed out of two of our roommates and can't afford the rent that way. That was really nice of him. So we asked, and they said no, and now we're back at the beginning. We have one other option of girls to ask, but VP has to ok them first, and we're not sure if he will. And if he doesn't... well... I just don't know. The three of us that are left could just get a place, but we sure couldn't afford a very nice or big one. And both of them are going student teaching second semester, so I'd be basically living by myself second semester. I can barely sleep in my room by myself when my roomie isn't here, much less be in my own apartment. But I can't really back out now... not that that would help the situation, as then I'd be stuck with someone at school who doesn't have a roommate, and that can't be good either

Boy situation: I told friend boy - he doesn't feel the same. However, he was amazingly cool about it, and I did feel better afterwards. Well, not immediately afterwards, but the next day. So now I'm on to the next guy on my "list". He's a guy I never though I'd like... I'm pretty sure I actually disliked him in previous school years, and yet here I am... and it doesn't make sense, and I don't want to hurt him, but I'm not really entirely sure what I'm thinking here. But I guess I haven't really been sure what I've been thinking for a good year at least, so what difference does it make now?