the princess talks...

I do love school... All summer all I talked about was how much I wanted to go back to school, and this is why. School is fun! My friends are awesome, I have stuff to do, and I don't have to deal with my family on a regular basis. I did make it back to beautiful MN just fine, and I did see the boy, and he is quite simply as perfect as I remember. I guess I never really understood how two people could "click". I've heard people talking about it, but I've never experienced it to this extent. It has made my life change a lot, but I'm really ok with it. Although, it still doesn't seem real. It was nice to come back and realize that he is the person that I remembered him to be, but I still sometimes catch myself thinking that it is all a dream. But it's not... it's real... and does that scare me even more? Possibly, because that means he could leave. But that's not something I have the time or the energy to worry about now. And for some reason, I don't think that even is something that I need to worry about.

The semester is done... and Christmas Break almost is too! Can you believe I'm excited to go back to school? I don't think I've ever been this excited before... but I've never had this much to go back to before. Yes, there is a boy. Not just any boy, but the boyfriend type. The perfect boyfriend type. Am I being silly? Honestly, not completely. He likes Hanson... what guys like Hanson? (there's also the N*SYNC thing, one thing on the very very very short list of things I don't like but can deal with) He's super easy to talk to about anything, and I honestly mean anything. He doesn't make me feel like I have to agree with him, but I do anyways. He accepts me for who I am, but I still want to be better just for him. He pushes me to do things I wouldn't otherwise do... not in a bad way, but in a good, character-enhancing way. He likes music and sports and me. He likes me! Now, the question is... do I like him because he likes me, or do I like him because I like him? Once upon a time this was a hard question for me, but, right now, it's the easiest in the world. I like him because I like him. I think the scariest part is how much I like him... I like him way way much. I like him way much, and he hasn't made me cry yet. He hasn't made me cry! What guy that I have liked hasn't made me cry? It's been two months, and I was only close once, and only because we were leaving for christmas, and I was extremely stressed about my history exam. It's been two weeks now without seeing him... I've talked to him lots, which is good, because I always have a hard time keeping up phone conversations with people, but not with him. Now I'm kind of scared, because he's not as "real" any more.. but I'm so excited to see him!!!! It's first date jitters all over again, and those are the best kind!