the princess talks...

Well, the musical is done. I can't believe it all got done ok and everything... I never thought it would. It was a much more difficult experience than I thought it would be. There was more cast 'unrest' than I anticipated... they just didn't bond as nicely as other casts or something... I'm not quite sure. I spent lots of stressful days and nights figuring everything out. Would I do it again? I honestly don't know. I have a feeling that since I'm only a sophomore, it's kinda assumed that I will do it again next year, but honestly, I don't know if I want to. I'd like to be Choral Director, but this whole producer thing just consumed my life, and I didn't really like that too much. What do I have to show for it now? Hmmm... well, I have lots of memories, good and bad, I did make a few awesome friends that I really love, and we put on a pretty good show. But other than that, I have lots of loose ends, and a few bad grades. I just don't even want to think about next year right now.

Life is going very well, for a few reasons that I'm not going to explain here. There are a few things I dislike though... I dislike being so afraid of getting hurt. I dislike how friends can't be honest with each other about how they are feeling, even if it might hurt, and I dislike how everything has to be a drama. I do not live in Dawson's Creek... not everything is dramatic. I have a hard enough time realizing this myself, and people just aren't helping too much. But, as a whole, I am the happiest I have been in a long time.